Hate

Dear ______,
I hate you. With every fiber of my being I hate you. Everything I have something good in my life you take it away. I had one...maybe two weeks of happiness then you crushed it, sending me back into the depression that you put me in years ago. I thought things were going to be ok, that life was worth living then this happened. I hate living in the same house as you, the same state, the same PLANET. The only thing that even keeps me alive is the possibility that I might see him again. I cant sleep, I cant eat, I can barely breathe. This depression controls my every thought.
I had nightmares every night that I finally began to shake and then you reared in your ugly fat disgusting head.
fuck you. i hope you die

Again

Things are fantastic. I love life so much right now. <3

=)

Last night was amazing. Not sure if its possible to feel better than this.
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its been a while

Ok well I have been neglecting my blog for a while so I decided it was time for a new post. Not much has really been going on. A bit of pre exam stress. I have a feeling I will be spending nights reading textbooks for the next few days. but ohh well. Its better than failing i suppose.
I am currently entertaining myself by watching Lord of the Rings. The best thing to take my mind off stuff. :) best movie ever invented....however Avatar takes close second. I guess theres not really much else to say. so farewell bloggers <3

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all shall fade.

<3

లవ్

Ok so I went to the new years eve party downtown and it was a blast! I went with my friend autumn and it was pretty rockin'
At first we just stood back and watched the bands but then the DJ played we were FRONT ROW baby. Some guy got us up there and we stood on the securtiy rail. it was great. we danced the night away. this was possibaly the best party i've ever been to. the best was when I got to croud surf <3 it was great. BLG was fantastic live btw.

New Years Eve

Ok well my friend invited me to new years eve on the grand thingie so im going to the ball drop tonight <3 this should be fun. im going to freeze to death though but oh well.
my (revised) scedual for the rest of the holiday
1. Today hang out downtown with autumn
2. Tomorrow chill w/ lenore
3. Saturday go to shannons
4. sunday go to a movie with calvin.
haha this week turned out to be ok after all